her feet from underneath her fell , and her brow dazed the ground from her embarrsing spill. the four little pups yelped and squirmed helplessly in there bedding and she prodding them into a bundle with her nose.Slowly she footed her way around them and began her trek for a few laps of water before returning to the family den.as she began to exit the rocky cave she noticed something perculiar about the air and she heard voices nearbye.with a low whine of intrest she moved forward listening.she couldn't make out anyone in particular,nor where there voices quite distinguishable,but there was a male and a female. and since there was only one male in there pack, it had to be terranova.with a keen intrest at hand , she moved forward with stealth and listened to the mumble of words.a few could be picked out here and there , but most were just a jumble. suddenly she felt an odd sensation prickle to her spine and she shivered with fright.something was wrong.moving forward she heard the female scream loud and clear a few words she had never dared she would here.if not so soon.she mustered up a bit of courage and walked through and opening as cleodontrah brushed past.she turned her head to watch the female disapear and pamelia's angry face shot out white against the darkness.

hurt stained her lovely white face as she stepped slowly into the clearing. eyes burning with a searing pain , and as tears began to stream down her face she turned and evil glare upon him."So this is how much I am of worth to you terranova?" cold glare seared across her face.She felt a burning anger to screech more to his unfaithful ears but paused a moment to make sure she had ready what she wished to say.with a slow start up she lashed out in a deep snarl " how truly absurd was I to fall for your lusty bastard wants.You are scum not worthy to stand before any female with a pride. You have endangered our pack,much less our pups.Though greatly you show to me just how much you care for them. Do you even care about the word 'mate' terranova? do you know what it means? to me it meant loyatly faithfulnes,truth , compassion. but obviously that was too hard for you. you are nothing more then the father of my pups terranova , and an alphen at my side. I bid you no services!" she ended with a deep growl and stormed away from him for a moment.eyes filled with pain and confusion.

she pulled away and weeped for some time. not daring that he challenge a step forward , no spare a kiss for her cheek. no apology would make up for his actions. but she had other things to descide. would she let cleadontrah remain in the pack? but from the sound of her tongue she didn't sound like she was leaving. but had it really been her fault.she had been forced against her will to breed with him.the bastard. light flick of her tongue set a hiss off in the dark as she cringed with anger.then there was the matter of raising another litter of pups.who knew how many she would have? she herself had 4 little ones and anymore would make thins too difficult.instead of throwing more harsh word his way she decided to settle with a long , cold harsh stare that made even her stomach feel uneasy.

I'M A SUPER NOVA BABY
rock that body
shake that body
let me see you dance to me
CAUSE I'M HOT IN THE SPOT LIGHT
to my looks
to my voice
dance for me baby

Then came a smell he didn't want to sniff. Eyes averted from Cleo, ignoring his words. Damn, damn, and DAMN. He felt like some childish kid that just broke the vase and was scrambling around to run away from the scene of the crime, but couldn't run anywhere but there Organ's beat against his chest as he stood frozen to the spot, eyes averting from Cleo to search the land. Then the she-wolf appeared in full glow in front of her. Ear pinned on his skull with uncertainly, the appending doom of some sort of yelling soon to come his way. And sure enough it did. "So this is how much I am of worth to you terranova?" He opened his jaws to speak but was quickly snap shut with a loud crack. He had nothing to say really. He just felt, well horrible. Claw racked the ground, head down to stare at the earth. how truly absurd was I to fall for your lusty bastard wants.You are scum not worthy to stand before any female with a pride. You have endangered our pack,much less our pups.Though greatly you show to me just how much you care for them. Do you even care about the word 'mate' terranova? do you know what it means? to me it meant loyalty faithfulness,truth , compassion. but obviously that was too hard for you. you are nothing more then the father of my pups terranova , and an alphen at my side. I bid you no services!" He felt like a kid still. Head down, between his shoulders as his 'mother' screamed at him at how valuable the vase was and how much it cost.

He didn't want to hear anything anymore. To his own relief she stopped. Eyes winched as he spared a look upward, but her eyes made him flinch. So wrung with anger, rage, fear and sadness. He made him want to kill himself. She bounded away like a dime on a pin wheel and he bit his tongue. Ears flicked forward still as her crying carried though-out the atmos. "Grahhh!" he screamed in frustration, his body squirming as he flung himself out, following her tracks slowly. So stupid, I was so stupid.... He repeated to himself over and over. The great Casanova was in trouble. He stopped, pain aching in his head. She wouldn't accept anything he said. Growl erupted from his jaws as he flew in the opposite direction. He was weak. He couldn't face a female. That was weak. He felt like some unruly beast. HE had bred females over and again, but this dumb bastard was to blinded to see he lost the only real female he ever had. He had never cried. Terranova just never, ever cried. No, he didn't. He couldn't. It was him. But when hot tears filled his eyes he became confused.

Normally he could flick a female off his shoulder when she yelled at him. Normally it was easy. But Pam wasn't easy. What about there pups? Another anguished yellow escaped his lips at the thought. He paced back and forth, fur on edge. Head banged into he tree while he kept his head low and he snorted in pain as he drug it away. "God DAMMIT!" he screamed. All he could say was that. Tail flicked in vexation. He had to do something. But he just couldn't.

He continued his pacing, claws ripping into the ground, causing big long dreads in the virgin soil. He had to say sorry. He never said sorry. Dammit this was all wrong! He bounded away, running toward Pam's scent, his head lowered with his eyes blinking quickly to rid the tears. Her loud weeping could be heard for a mile away and as he neared her crumpled form he felt a knife stab into his chest. He jerked away, eyes closing in pain. He should just, she should just...the pups..Soon he spoke up, his voice chokey. HE felt so much like a kiss up. His actions where just him getting all soggy over some female leaving him. He was acting like some other male. But the truth is, Terranova wasn't acting like himself. It was killing him. All he could think about was saying something to her. "Pam..I-" but he stopped, jaws setting themselves as he sniffed quietly. "I know this wont help in anyway. I, I just cant leave this without. Gah, I don't know anymore..." he said pausing again. His head was jumbled, and talking was hard to comprehend right now. "I'm just being sappy, just like any other male would do. There really isn't anything....nothing I can do to make you forgive me Pam. But I just have to say..." the words froze in his mouth. He couldn't say that word. That words that never graced his lips before..."I'm......sorrry"

He wanted to run away, jump off a cliff or something. Just anything t end this feeling that he never felt before. He didn't want to feel this. But he just couldn't move. So he froze, not daring to look at her. He tried to move his legs, but all he did was crumble at the spot. He didn't try to get up. He didn't even try to make himself look handsome, proud and muscular. He just wanted to die. He only thought that maybe if he lay here he never had to live, or move, or think again. HE felt so helpless. Caught in some undertow. Everything Pam thought he would be, was falling right before him. Every step that he took was another mistake to himself and possibly her. And every second he wasted was more then he could handle. He felt so numb, and he couldn't feel Pam or anyone else. He felt tired, so much more away. Damn.

What kind of mate would be like this? He was the type of who never saw what he had untill she leaves. He shouldve wised up, but he paid the cost. He wasent living untill he was living with her. He wasent winning untill he was wining with her. This was the potential breakup song.